Pathtic girl

Diary, short stories, the most important...
At first we learn to walk then learn to scream..

Wednesday 30 March 2011

The worst thing that ever happened

I know I promised I will write in Spanish a lot. But I promised this will be my blog in English. So I will write a lot in English and sometimes in Spanish. Because tengo que improve mi español. Depende.

OK. My day wasn't the one of the best. I spent hours waiting for a change that didn't come. I don't know what I expected. Perhaps it was another worthless hope. Never mind.

Do you know what is the worse thing that ever happened to me?

I know you have no idea what could be the worst thing that happaned to me. And I know that most of you don't want to find out the truth. But for those who at least a bit care:

The worst thing that ever happaned to me is...

There are many of them. I can't say just right now. I have no idea why I am writing about that...

The worst thing that ever happened to me is that I was born. I was born as a stupid characterless person who just tries to show the world he (she) is better then they think. I don't worth it. I obviously do not.

Doesn't matter anyway. OK.. Run if you can.

Scream if you can.

Tell me what you think if you can. Till you can.

Tuesday 29 March 2011

Amazement

I spent hours studying. I had thousands fights with my parents. And the result? There is no result. I can see only myself in my poor life and all I can feel is the stupid pity I hate so much you can't imagine.

I've decided I will write also in Spanish. Every single day (when I will be able to) I will write an article in Spanish. I will also write in English. This is not a blog in Spanish. Mostly in English. But if I want to be good I have to do more then just do what I have to. I want to be better then others at least in one stupid subject.

I know... I will never be better. But I can be good and then I can be really good and then I'll learn the language and I will be good. But I have to do something for then. Getting better because I realise I can be good at least in one stupid thing.

English, Czech, Spanish. Three languages I can improve. And Franch. I want to learn this language. But it has to wait. I will study that after I will get some skills from Spanish. That is the most important right now. Go on. Good luck.

See ya... Bye

Nuestros vividas

Hola...
¿Qué tal?

No sé... No estoy cierta porque es escuela tan difícil. No estoy contenta con mis resultados. Estoy falto de concentratión. ¿O porque es las Máticas y la Física tan mal?

No importa.
¿Y porque escribo en espaoñol? Porque cada uno habla inglés. Y quiero a ser (estar - no cierto) buena en una cosa.

Gracias. Y tengo esperanza, que estás paciente conmigo. Hasta la vista (mis amigos buenos)

Monday 28 March 2011

Todos los días

Hola,
¿Cómo estás?...

Mi día estuve terrible. No sé... pero no estoy capaz a aceptar ese. Pero no sé... Tengo que trabajar. Trabajar y hacer tan mucho como puedo. No estoy cierta en mi vivida porque esa no está buena. No estoy feliz. Pero quiero cambiarme. Cambiar a mejorar mujer. Mejorarme a buena persona...

Gracias... ¿Hablo español? Un poco. O no... no hablo.. pero voy a estudiar mucho... Y un día voy a hablar español mucho...

Un abrazo muy fuerte O muchos besos... Hasta luego... Tu amiga Markéta...

Thursday 24 March 2011

Today

After so long time is sunny day. And I can't appreciate it.. again.. I am such a fool... I am not able to be happy with my happy life... I just don't know what I want...

But I am sure with many things...

I want to make school being much easier... Because this I just will not be able to bear... or make... I work a lot and It doesn't help..

I want to meet new people... I know all the time the same people and I need something new. I want to go out and meet a perfect, complicated person who is a bit arogant and ignorant and who is able to go and say I am good.. Who will like me and won't ignore me.. I need attention... at least a bit..

I want to talk to that person and discover his secret sides that he doesn't want to show me.

I want to have a lot of money and spent the rest of my life in the USA or England... I would be happy with Spain or France... And move out later... I just hate this.. moving out would help me with second problem and perhaps will give me an inspiration...

I want to find a good job I can have with school that would help me have many money..

I want to have a lot of new clothes and shoes and boots...

I want to be slim and wear beautiful dresses and clothes...

I want to grew up

I want to be good at something. Like really good. Like have real thing in whitch I am better then others and I can do it with inspiration for others.

I want to do all my thing I want to do before death.

I want to be good in writing. I want to be a writer and finish my book. And sell it.

I want to be good and popular. As Dominik for example. He has everything and he is aware of that. That is not good for me and it is good for him...

Wednesday 23 March 2011

Why?

I guess at first I owe an explanation, because I have got my blog for over two years and it works. This is just...

I write it because of my future abroad friends who can't Czech and whith who I want to share the same things as with my other friends.

Perhaps my real or the second or Czech blog (or how am I supposed to call my first blog that certainly is not dying) know too many people and I am tired of that being careful what I'm writing. I want to write what I want and how I feel without terrible consequences. The freedom of my word, you know?

OK. So if anyone finds this blog, then hi and I hope you like it. It's something new and different I hope.

And I am sorry for my English. I am not a native speaker and I am not the best of all in my class. I just... Want to share. As I said...

Hi.. It's me... what's up?