Dark pumpkin

Today is one of the most amazing days I've ever heard of - Halloween.

I had the chance to meet Halloween itself. If you know what I mean. I was taken by Samhalin. Thrown right into the arms of dead people which are celebrated this time.

Smalin. Old Celtic father of Halloween - as I was told. And something took my hand.

Oh no! - Has he really an axe in his head! Where am I and why is standing right next to him man with a pumpkin instead of head? What is going on here?

And then I see a knife and suddenly I have a real hole in my chest.

And after some time I am screaming by fear and pain that is actually happening to me. And then they are taking my skin off and flesh afterwards. What is happening to me?

And suddenly I have only bones and nothing else..

WTF?

And now it's me who scares kids now...

MUHEHE

Am I angry again?

I was told that I should behave. I was told that I will be missed. Nothing of this is actually real. Because otherwise that would mean I should be the best person on the planet. And I am not this kind of person.

Sometimes I would appreciate if people underestimate me. Because that would mean no disappointment. Though I would suffer because no one on this planet believes in me. But I feel like sometimes people except too much. And because they believe it I believe it too. So in the end I won't disappoint just them. I will disappoint me as well.

And what could be worse then disappointment from myself?

I know that sounds very confident - but I think that people overestimate me sometimes. Like teachers who expects me to be good but I am not because I can't. Or parents who believe teachers.

Or people who think that I can do that. But I can't. That happened to me so many times that I am surprised of myself. Because I haven't lost my confidence. I am still confident and I still know who I am. And I am proud of that. Because that is what people miss or what they think is attractive - it is only easy - doing like I don't have any confidence - like I hate myself.

But this sort of people is not attractive anymore. Usually it is just the way how you can look poor or sad. Bud sadness is not what people are looking for.

So just forget you've read this page.

Thanks :-

Your dear friend - I hope dearest

Mar

Internet - nothing worse...

Don't ever - EVER buy something over the internet... My sister did and that's how it looks now.... she has nothing... well.. I am bit sorry for her.. but it is mostly her mistake. She wants to save money and she has nothing...
That is mostly her fault and she will be the one who is unhappy... I am a bit sorry...
Don't ever do the same thing!