Pathtic girl

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At first we learn to walk then learn to scream..

Sunday 19 February 2012

I want to see London

I have one big dream lately - I wish I could visit London. You know.. True London. Live there, work there for while - if I am very lucky study there as well (in some really good school) and other similar things. I wish that so MUCH...

And that makes me trembling. I want to be one day different you know...  Anyway.. Have a nice day---

Tuesday 7 February 2012

The perfect guy

I am in love.. by the way :-) The most beautiful and talented boy and I must always like someone like that..
He is beautiful.. like very very hot.. he is actually very cute - mostly because he sometimes looks so confused and so silly... and he is though very adult.

He can everything that requires perfect boy - like plays the guitar - I haven't seen many better players.. he plays all those perfect songs I always wanted to learn.. he is funny he is smart he is talented he wants to be a teacher. He plays piano - he can all those perfect piano songs why I want to learn play it as well. He is not selfish, he doesn't need to show everybody he can play. He sings perfectly.

He talked to me. He has a best friend - one of those you can tell everything. And it's a boy. Something I  haven't seen in my life. He is so hot, so nice, so sweet. I just wanted to write that somewhere. He is one of those I would love to be with one day.

Why does this always have to be like that? Why am I not as great as he is? Why can't I be for once so perfect that people would love to be with me. But I am always the childish one. I am always the crazy one. I am the one who keeps dreaming about boys but never gather enough courage to ask them out. Or at least ask them at all. I would love to be brave - for once in my life.

I want to be so perfect like T. Because she is perfect. Though I guess I've learnt how to wish her only the best things. I am so glad it ended up this way. Though I really envy her the trip to Canada. I also want to go to Canada for a half of a year. But I won't let that be a problem. I want to wish her only the best things. I want to be a good person. And I want to try an university or collage in any different country. If that works out - I would be the happiest person on the planet.. and that's the point, isn't it?