It is really nice to have a diary with everything so secret that even I forget. Like.. who would suspect that I have something else, right?
I must admit this is new to me. Feeling something in my life. Having new friends. I even must admit that I don't miss my current friends. I just don't miss my ex best friend. Even though she was my best friend. She just left me. And I can't force myself to feel something like friendship anymore.. I mean.. she made a choice.. and she made the right one.. but sometimes you must lose something to gain something else. And she should know that by now.
She has a lot of experience, she used to be there for me, and she can English much more. But that's it. I am not going to try to act like someone else because I am not. She lost me. I know, it is not a great lost, but it is. And that doesn't mean that the past was something else.. it just was.. there.. and it did something to me. I am just tired of that, really.. and it is not funny anymore. But what to say? This world is leaving me behind...
All right then.. I guess that's all I wanted to say...
Thanks a lot...
Bye...
